I always end up living in this world of doubt
And sanity is a full time job
In a world that is always changing
And sanity will make you strong
If you believe in sanity."
So work is really starting to get to me. My new owner is the strangest person I have ever met and I mean that in a bad way (that is the nicest way I can phrase that sentence). One day he is nice as pie to me and the next he is overly critical. He is constantly “critiquing” me in front of customers and I’m getting sick of it. I have been doing this job for two fuck years, if I was no good at it I wouldn’t have lasted as long as I did. I feel unappreciated and I just wish that for once he was say “You did a good job today” or “Great job on bread.” Instead it’s all “Wear smaller gloves” (for the record Medium gloves are too big for my hands and the small is too tight...sorry I have weird sized hands) or “Why didn’t you set the timer?! You should have looked! BREAD COMES FIRST” (no, customers come first! Customers always come first) or “Why didn’t you ask for a meal? You should have asked if he wanted a meal” (look, this guy has been coming twice a week since I have been working here and he never gets a meal. It’s a pointless question).
I was at the other Subway getting supper for my parents and me. To make a long story short, it was cheaper for me to get it at the other subway because the owner of my store is a cheapskate. I was talking to the manager who had been begging me to come work for her for months now. At the same time, I thought things were getting better at my store so I told her I would think about it. Today, she offered me the perfect shift since one of the ladies (who I worked with at the other store and I adore) is leaving. I’m not sure if I can pass this opportunity up. Would I be a bad person if I left my current store to work at the other one? Or do I have to do what’s best for me?
I don’t know what I am going to do but I have options. I do have enough money to pay off my student loan so that’s a plus. I just fear if I stay at my current store, I am going to have a nervous breakdown. He makes me feel crazy and I get anxiety just thinking about that place. If I do leave I will miss the staff and the customers but it all boils down to the crazy owner and my hours. I hope I will figure out what to do soon.